If you're anything like me, you've worked hard to accomplish certain things. Maybe they're physical world things, and maybe they're mental, emotional, or spiritual world things. I, personally, have focused most of my energy on the psycho-spiritual realm, and I'm a stronger, healthier, and more fulfilled person because of it. But the fact is that human life is a life of duality, of ups and downs, gains and losses, joys and sorrows.
We can either fight these earthly realities or accept them for what they are---accept our apparently flawed selves for what we are. At some point in our personal evolution we will be above all of this. We will be like those yogis who can meditate peacefully in a sweltering cave in India and not notice all the suffering around us. Or maybe we notice, but we inherently understand that it's not what it appears to be. All is really well somehow, and in divine order, no matter how conditions appear.
I look forward to that day. But until then I guess I'll just continue to do the best I can and strive to forgive myself when my best doesn't seem to be good enough. I'll try to remember that life is ever changing, that whatever we attach ourselves to today may be gone tomorrow, that the only security in life lies in relishing the insecurities of life.
When we can lean into the existential realities of our lives instead of fearfully pushing them away, something shifts in us. Miraculously, we feel the inevitable upswing. One day we're hopeless, and the next day we feel alive again. That is grace.
