Like you, I have a toolbox full of coping mechanisms and tricks for managing my mental and emotional states, but lately I've been having to tap dance double-time. I've been asking around, and it turns out that most of my spiritually sensitive (and highly functioning) friends are experiencing the same thing. Here are some quotes from last week alone:
"I collapsed, and couldn't get out of bed for three days."
"I've been processing, nonstop"
"I'm so on edge, I'm afraid I'm going to lose it."
"I'm weary of life. Sometimes I wish this was over and I could go home."
The 2012 "energy" is intense, but what does that mean? It seems that 2012 is a time of great transition. I believe it is all good and that we're moving from the old duality into a gradually improving state---possibly even what would be called a golden age. But change is not easy (just ask a caterpillar, or a twelve year old with growing pains).
In order to evolve, we have to dump what doesn't work anymore and embrace new, better ways of being. This can be scary, stressful, and grief-producing. We have to be patient and kind to ourselves during these growth spurts or else we risk retarding the process. It's difficult to realize that you're in a productive clearing process when you're in the middle of it, but sometimes just knowing that this is a time of acute human evolution can help you not spin out of control when things heat up.
What's up for you right now? Is it possible that you're going through a necessary growth process? Please share your stories. I'd love to hear from you.